The last few months I’ve been trying to be more honest with myself. It started with accepting what I don’t like and reasoning out why I’m still doing it, most of the reasons were pretty much “because other people will think I’m like this or like that myeh myeh myeh”. And honestly, what a weird way to live. AT MY BIG AGE? Hilarious.
Anyway, this morning I did a sketch inspired by Marigold Santos’ Re-Grounding. A girl’s side profile with some sort of plant coming out of her eyes and mouth.
Colour palette: Cream, Light Magenta, Light Cobalt Turquoise and Light Ultramarine.
I chose these colours because it reminded me of the cold sunset on December 2, 2024. Sunsets like these aren’t rare here in Calgary, which is one of my favourite things in this city.
While I was making colouring the background, I used lighter force at first but later on i decided to go harder. I used different colouring strokes (circle circle, side by side, up and down). I kind of regret it but at the same time I enjoyed doing all of that. I didn’t have any sort of goal for how I wanted this piece to look. I just let my hands do what it wants and hope for the best.
That thought process got me thinking, is my brain just tired from thinking? Is my body just looking for something creative to do because it has been awhile? Is my soul aching for some play?
Not sure how to answer any of those questions or how I’m going to proceed with all these feelings I have right now. Maybe that’s why I’m blogging on my own site right now? So that it’s not really out there in the open but it’s there, you just have to look for it when I yap. Instagram feels so intimidating sometimes, like I have to put on a mask but no one really cares. IT’s me WHO DOES LOL.
Being open and vulnerable is what makes greats artists but OH MY GOD ANY TIME I DO THAT IT STINGS. It feels like I’m peeling my skin under the sun while the mountain breeze caresses it. Feels so sore and spicy??? But yeah. It’s time to get used to it AT MY BIG AGE.
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